Two Day update...15th and 16th.
The boys turned 21 months today. It is so shocking to see where we started and where we are now. Reflecting back I can see spots where I need to let go a little and spots where I need to be more involved. I know it seems silly but I keep wondering if it ever gets easier. Will it get easier for M and I to agree on what is right or wrong? Will the boys be easier to entertain? Can I find a balance?
So for now my focus is on the boys and M. I kind of checked out for awhile and I haven’t been very helpful. It’s easy for me to get into a rut where I do the same thing everyday. Unfortunately, M has been left picking up my slack and I have been less than thankful to her and for all her hard work and time. Hopefully now I can take some of the workload off of her. We will still share the daily chores of getting the boys ready, fed, cleaned up and taken care. I am going to start helping with all the extras…basically phone calls. If you know me, then you know that I am on the phone for my job a lot. So when I get home I don’t want to be anywhere near a phone. In fact if I win the lottery, I plan on hiring someone to answer my phone so I never have too again. Either way, I have used this as an excuse for too long and it has to stop. It’s not like M comes home and says I don’t want to teach the boys because I taught all day at work today.
On a more positive note, we are looking at moving into a new and bigger house. A lot of things have to come together but it is good to know that if everything aligns then we can move into a house with almost double the space. If things work out right I may have a home office to work from which will allow me too work from home more. That will make me more relaxed….